I’ve been reading a lot of Christian books lately, and books on leadership, and I’ve started to get uneasy, and freak out because I’m no where near where I want to be in regards to self-discipline, leadership, and my walk with Christ. But then it hit me today, as I was working, staring blankly at the computer screen, that its a process. I can’t expect to become who I want to be over night.

I’ve read it in every one of these books, but I don’t know why, it didn’t hit home with me, and I was just thinking about who I am, and who I want to be, and I realized that it wont be a day, a week, or even a year. It will take a life time to become the person I want to be. Everything I struggle with, will take time to overcome, and I can only overcome one obstacle at a time.

I think that as I overcome one thing, another, and even another, and then start exhibiting more and more characteristics I strive for, then the momentum will start to build, and it will be easier for the next thing. Its a process where I just need to have faith in God, and realize I’m only human, the thing that counts, is that I’m trying, and I realize my faults.

Too often I beat up on myself because I’ve made a mistake, and I’ve let someone down, but I think I need to realize what’s important, and just go on, and don’t allow myself to do it again. If I do mess up, which will happen again and again, see it as an opportunity to see how human I am, and that I’m above and below no one, and I need to face the challenge, and overcome it.